Every Little Things

Right, I know I have been away for quite some times.

I just ain't in the mood of writing anything. Many things happened, and many stories to tell...but just ain't in the mood.

Anyway, I have a great night last night. M's birthday and he treats us to shabu-shabu steamboat, followed by karaokae at Rich Town. Just realised, whoaw~ I haven't been to karaokae for months! I think i really sing alot last night..lol..

M is really one of my good friends. Have been knowing him since we were 13...12years we knew each other, but we lost contact in between..lol!!Real friendship starts hmm...2 years ago? He is really friendly, loyal and helpful guy. No wonder he has really lots and lots of friends around :) We hang around quite alot for the past two years, with bunch of friends of course..

I was really touched when M said, " I am sad because your wedding is coming. I am not sad you are going to get married, I am sad you are leaving us after getting married." Pfff.....So touching. Frankly, I do not know what to response when I hear this, because I feel the same, when thinking I'm going to leave my lovely friends to another city. And I have no friends there :( Feeling nervous for the need to start a whole new life.

Realised I have not been to LJ for weeks.

There are so many things happened after new year and I have so much to tell, just not in the mood. Everything that happen, aren't good one either.

The things do not happen to me, but just some people around me, and someone I know.

What I can do, is just to pray hard to GOD, for sin they have done. Hope things aren't getting any worse.

What brought me here -.-?!

Okay, I'm stuck in the case, still figuring out..so take my time coming up to LJ.

I have been away from LJ for the past whole week.

I am busy!!

Busy celebrating Chinese New Year, busy celebrating my birthday! Last single birthday!!

I am just too lucky to have bunch of friends celebrating birthday and CNY with me this year (only few lost, escaping cny!).

Stay tune for photos!

I am happy because I just browsed my achieve, I am suprised by my own consistency in blogging. Alright, maybe I don't really do well for some months.

Of course, this is one of my New-Year-Resolutions! I hope I can do better, sharing stories and what I have in mind. I don't actually send links to friends, to share them my blog. I think I have been quite transparent & honest here. I don't actually hide my identity. Downside of this, I might probably get fired very soon because I found that I complaint the job quite a lot! LOL!!

I don't share my blog not because I don't want friends to read it. I enjoy people reading my blog.

But I just don't see any difference if you send them links, if they are not blog readers, or bloggers.

I don't call myself blogger anyway.

I believe in fate! So you could probably see this blog through search engine! lol!! Just if we have fate!!

I don't mind stranger reading it anyway :D

I'm sure we have dreams, countless of dreams. When we were young, we must have imagined what we going to become when we grow up.; or maybe, what are we going to do if our current life change.

I think 95% of people in this world are not living for our true self. I'm not saying that you are not "being-yourself". What I mean is that, are you doing what you like, as what you dreamt to be; be it an artist, a doctor, a teacher, a singer or a dancer. I can see 99% of people around me aren't doing what they like, but yet, we still have to keep continue on doing what we DON'T LIKE!!

No choice. This is reality. We need money. We need money to survive.

For average one hour walking in town, you need to expense off on "something". This is our true life.

I am one of those people who are not doing what I like. I am always not the study type of person. However, still i graduated from university, and somehow, keep doing upgrading studies. Reality is........I HATE STUDY!! It's true!! But some people just never believe that, just because I AM STILL STUDYING.

Keep studying doesn't mean that I love study. LOL!! Study is never one my my liking. Learning and study is different. I like learning, but I hate study. To my understanding and definition, learning = learn something you like; study = study something you don't like.

I thought I am an art person. I love art. I thought I will become a designer since I was 16, or maybe a pianist or stewardess?.lol! I love aeroplanes and I so @$#@!! love travelling!! But my art teacher thought I will become an artist! and I'm always sure I will become one!!

Okay just let stick to the designer. See how I fail to become one :D

I was actually going to a famous design school when I graduated from high school. But *wth* I didn't manage to go, due to my parents objection. They told me designer has NO FUTURE, NO MONEY, NO JOB!! LOL...please do not bom my parents because they advice for my good :D But it's true, there is no much famous international designer here in my country. So, instead of going to the design college, I went to the !##@#@ college doing my A LEVEL!!!! and  eventually end up doing this !@$#! boring job. But yeah, I admit  don't need to worry about recession or jobless (despite from the annual bonus), at least for the moment.

I don't know is this a good thing for me. I have no worries of getting a job to earn a living.Of course, not to get a job I like.

If you asked me to go back study for art, regardless the degree I hold, I don't think I have the energy and the determination to do it anymore. Yes, I still love art because I am always an art person. Yet, I failed to become one because parents say no future! To be realistic, hmm.....maybe...And I don't think I have the potential or talent to do it anymore. It will never be the same again, especially when you grow older and older. Your mind become more and more realistic, and those dreams are eventually washed away by time. Oh, plus, more money-minded!!

Your talent will never keep following you when you give up on them!!!

I was asking myself am I regret?!

I can't give you the exact answer. Yes, when I am forced to do something which I never intend to do. No, when I think of I am in a cosy area, without worry about unemployment, although I am not very successful yet in my profession (and I actually doesn't really care if I am very successful in this, because I DON"T LIKE!!).

I am not saying that artist are unemployed. But frankly, artist really need some kind of strong determination to pursue. You can be either very successful, or end up eating grass. You have to admit artist take years and years to fight for success!!

This is the reality. That is why I always hate reality.LOL!!!! And I admit artist are usually weird with some fantasy thinking. They can't be one if they aren't w.e.i.r.d..lol! Admit that! Yes, I am very weird, according to my friends.

Then, when your children told you one day, he/she wanted to become an artist, will you support him/her?! This is a question worth my thinking.

I was in the "customize journal" for at least 30 minutes, selecting new theme for my LJ.

I still like my old "Bread" theme. But tends to get really bored at times. So I decided to search for another fresh-looking theme.

And here it is, the "Wedding" theme. It suits, for at least these couple of months :D

Might change back to the old theme some day. Who knows...

One thing I haven't get used with the theme, yet. That will be the navigation bar.

I am always particular with the navigation bar. I want everything in organized...with all tags and link tidily and properly lay beside, one by one, all the way down. This is the reason it took me so long to look for an appropriate theme. Actually I have been searching for a nice theme now and then, few months back. Call me "sot" lol!!! I am just silly particular with those un-important thing...lol!!

I get this through forward email, and I think it's rather useful for those office lady, including me.

I like to cross my leg a lot. Whenever I sit, for sure I cross my leg. Since young, I have the "Crossing-leg-while-you-sit" is the lady way of sitting. But in terms of health, it seems rather harmful. I can especially feel that my back bone isn't straight!! Serious!

Actually heard a friend of mind saying about "C" shape of my back bone. I can't feel it that time. That was around age 18. But now, i can feel that, especially when I switch job become office lady.

Doing yoga helps, but, it takes time. (I have stopped going to yoga class for at least 3 months *blushed* because of laziness)

Guess I will put this into my 2009 resolutions list.

Here is some prove : -

Another rainy day!

I struggled to get myself out of bed this morning. Yes, I hate raining! But it is just so nice to be in bed, snuggle and wrap myself in the comforter during rainy days.

Too bad its a working day, no choice but have to get up.


Today is Thursday, that means tomorrow is Friday.

Urgh....I don't mean to be surprised by "Today is Thursday and tomorrow is Friday". But...tomorrow is friday, meaning "she" is coming to stay with us for the rest of the month....or even until end of NEXT MONTH!!! Okay, at least until the end of CNY! Just feeling weird and uneasy having someone staying at my house, looking and starring at what I'm doing...That means, less time for me to use washroom, sharing bedroom and etc.

I don't mean to be rude, but you just can't imagine how long it takes for the lady to use the washroom!~

When I got to know that my friends are talking, planning and booking tickets back for my wedding, I am so touched!

First, my wedding is still 5 more months to go, and yet they have been planning since last year when they know I'm going to get married this year, 2009!

Second, they aren't from near city. Some from same states different city, some from different states at east and west! Some even back from overseas, Singapore...Australia..etc... to attend my wedding! And some booked ticket few months back!!

Don't you think that my friends are bring sweet to me?!

But funny thing is that, the groom, the host of the day, hasn't book his ticket back yet!! LOL!! Just how funny it is when every guests come, and where is the groom? *touch wood*

Huggies to all my friends :) Thanks for showing your appreciation!

Title says it!!

I've only been with this company the past 6 months. Luckily the boss is generous enough to give me 0.5 month bonus.

Hmm...I will save the money, something for my mum i guess :)

Looking forward to shop at May! Hope the time flies asap! LOL! Have been years since I last shop at KL!

By the way, I received a colleague's "Red Bom" today. Wondering.....what present for her??...